'I want!',

it tells me to say,
letting all
'I would like to'
lie beside, un-
considered

all maybes and perhapses and pleases
cold-shouldered beneath.


But

I do

want

and I do want

to


and It tells me and makes me and lets me.

It knows and has easy ways
without question, arguability or
kindness
gentleness
politeness.







Proverbs and psalms.







And I still
want
need
search
for that ignition key

missing an unknown key
to start a process unknown

,

and I see that
the question of 'how'
is beneath the case,
a key that is
actually
a resulting realisation
coverable in retrospection
only

but
seeming
needed
now

to start the process with it.



And it makes me wonder
whether one can


light a fire
with ashes?

It seems to make sense
that you
can't.
As long as being upon the assumption
that the ashes
are none of
past own fires.

But then, you would only be able to
re-light
ones that you already have
or only partially tease out sparks
you partially need for the new fire
because
the past is always but a remnant
but an ingredient of the always
of the to-be
and of the now.

It radiates into all.



But damn I
don't know what which is:
key, fire.


And what to put
and whether to put
a
sacrificial altar?













They inquired about How,
but I didn't kno-ho-how
so I told them not to go-ho-how
for her.



Her older brother was ex pe ri ence
in a cosmic dance
of inter-a-ha-ction.












.

















Vacuity & Void
celestials with truculence

and holes in their sky





in my Kingdom where no body dies.

















And what does meaningless mean?



It isn't irrelevant
but completely not
portable
into existence.

All has.
That's what it
does.


<sub>Although that isn't really an active dynamic activity.

Activity, process, momentary action.

It's stative, but persistent. It's always there
with worth and value.</sub>





.












Hagalaz
_{Crisis or Radical Change,
saying:}
“Don’t try to fix what we should break before it breaks us.”


Teiwaz/Tyr
_{Justice, Victory, Truth, Sky God - Light Blue/White}

Laguz
_{Psychic Abilities, Flow, Water Energy, Healing - Blue}

H

T , L



The uppermost at the captial
the subsequents standing left and right;





Know Runes magic?





















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And I want to be your
humeral avulsion of glenohumeral ligament

I want to re-fix our umbilical cord
to end this awful separation
although I know
that you will feed and destroy me,
dream brother


I need you.

I want your heaven

I want my hell.











And I am miserable
for it

with unspoken shadows I want to keep from you
desperately but with determination

because I am the
Sorrow of the World.

I foray at the death of night
with no name
with no home
and I carry what they don't know,
what they are and shall forever be
unaware of.

Even though I don't like seclusion.
Even though I yearn for distance.



And the distance makes me ache.




It hurts.







And I am yearning for your healing.

And I know that after
it will shove me into hellish abyss.










Let's not be reasonable.












,









I know you know
and at the same time you don't.





I am an alien soul materialised in a human body.
A life form cultivated in vitro.










I am the Liontamer.










I'm one of a kind.
We're two of a kind.



I am the Bard, I am the Sailor.
Two in one.




You sail the seas.





Too far
on-site
for my taste.




There is of course never
such thing as


too far.






Hit the accelerator and ride on.

















<sub>Because
accomplishment is three meters of rope,
achievement is to climb the tower.


Weave it,
then climb.</sub>











Hit the accelerator and ride on.











Always at full speed.
























With the guidance of light.